“Don’t waste anymore time striving after things God has not ordained.”Jon Duncan, Cross Culture
Pastor Jon said this sometime in the last week or so. My days all blur together. What can I say? I’m a mom. I know you feel me, mommas.
Two things I’m learning recently:
1. Stop striving and kicking like a little kid because you’re not getting what you want the way you want it.
2. Learn to rest and let go.
“Let it go, let it go…”Frozen
Now it’s stuck in ALL our heads. I feel better now that we’re all suffering together, don’t you?
Okay, so it’s easier said, or sang, than done to let go. I find myself striving after what I think God is doing/bringing without actually asking Him if He’s ordained it for me. Sometimes things come up that look really great. I might get more money, prestige, feel good about myself,…wait. Myself? That can’t be good. If I’m thinking about me it’s probably not a good decision, no matter how great it looks on the outside. But, I find myself striving for that thing, making excuses: I could probably do it, it wouldn’t take too much of my time, and I could use the extra money for ____. Maybe because it’s going to help me prosper, it’s right. Right?
NOPE! He hasn’t called me to prosper, He’s called me to serve Him and love Him and others. If the decision I’m about to make will detract from that, it’s a no. Most of the time I know deep down that He’s saying no, but I still work on changing His mind. HA! Hilarious, isn’t it? Me, changing the mind of the Almighty. Sure. ‘Cause that’s not a total idolatry-of-me moment.
Thank God for wise counsel. I’m telling you right now, if you don’t have wise counsel in your life and/or people who will tell you no, you are likely going to fall on your face and have some regrets.
“The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice.”Proverbs 12:15
Believe it. Moving on. The second thing I’m learning is to rest and let go. I was frustrated (pathetically mourning really) about the decision I’d made to say no to the opportunity in front of me. I knew it was the right decision, but it broke my heart a little.
On my way home I was praying about it, and the Lord reminded me of my son during swimming lessons. My lovely aunt was teaching him to float and he was NOT having it. He kept trying to get up or turn over, was kicking, and just wouldn’t rest. We kept telling him, “Just rest! It’s going to be okay,” but he wouldn’t listen. He was going to get out of laying there and floating through the pool.
As I was “watching” this play through my mind, He said, “That’s you.” He reiterated what wise counsel told me earlier in the day, which was that I am finally in a place of resting in Him and decompressing and don’t need to have anything derail that rest. I don’t need to strive for more. I don’t need to add anything new that will cause stress to my life. I don’t need anything that could cause me to be so busy I miss out on my true calling: serving God, serving my kids, and serving others. I’m learning to rest in and wait on Him and see the fruit of that rest become ordered steps.
Prayer: Father, help me continue in Your rest. Help me to know when I’m looking at a distraction and give me the wherewithal to say no to it. Search my heart and show me that which keeps me from Your Presence and rest or sets itself up above You. Forgive me for being prideful and thinking I know better than You. I don’t! You know the plans You have for me. Help me not to be anxious about the plan, but in every situation to pray so I know when it’s You leading me. As I do this, let Your peace, which transcends all understanding, guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Amen