Last night I had a flashback to something I’d done many, many years ago. I hadn’t thought about this thing for a long time. It was one of those big sins that although others may have thought it wasn’t as big a deal as I thought it was, to me it is deserving of the highest punishment. Remembering threw me for a loop, and the fear of that memory and the thought of the possibility of my doing it again overwhelmed me.
Now, I know the Word. I know that it says, “there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus…” I know we are “not given a spirit again to fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind.” I also know that “if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” But this memory had me sick to my stomach over what I’d done in the far past.
Do you have a past sin like that (or even a recent one)? Something that shows up out of nowhere and just the memory of it sends you reeling? All sin should have that effect on us. But, what do we do in a situation like that? The Word can answer this and every other question that arises from this life:
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”2 Corinthians 10:5
We submit to God and resist the devil. The devil comes to steal, kill, and destroy. He will do whatever it takes to steal our joy, kill our confidence in the Word, and destroy our faith and trust in Jesus Christ and His sacrifice. If he can get us to question God’s faithfulness, he’s gained a victory.
Whatever that sin is that we can’t let go of, we must remember that Jesus died for that very one. Yes, He died for every other one, but that one is the one which makes us say as Paul did,
“This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief…”1 Timothy 1:15
But, we must take Him at His Word. We have to consider that at the very moment we were committing that sin, the Lord Himself was dying for it. He provided the payment for it through His death, and He made it possible for us to know true joy in the forgiveness of our sins. As far as I know, Christianity is the only religion in which there is a God of love who provides the Way into right standing with Him. All others require good works or sacrifices or other means of “salvation,” and even those do not guarantee the followers’ entry.
“But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.”1 Corinthians 6:11b
God loved us so much, He gave His only begotten Son to die a terrible, gruesome death on a cross that was meant for us. By His blood we are made clean.
“Come now, let us reason together”, says the Lord. “Though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be like wool.”Isaiah 1:18
How good is our God to provide the Way to Him knowing we would screw everything up. How great is His grace, that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for the ungodly.
Prayer: My God, how precious is Your Son to me. I still can barely fathom how great Your love is, that You would create a way for me and a sacrifice for the horrible things I’ve done against You. I’m so grateful for your grace and Your continual reminder of how much You care for a sinner like me. Thank You for Your Word, which serves as a sword against the wiles of the enemy who seeks to devour me. Help me to never forget the public spectacle You made of Him that day You won the victory. Teach me to hide Your Word in my heart, that I might not sin against You and that I might measure my every condemning thought against it to know what is true and what is a lie. Thank You, Jesus. What a wonderful Savior You are. Amen.