A few months ago God revealed to me during prayer that He wanted me to deal with 3 major issues in my life. Last week when I confessed the third and final problem and sought help from a trusted friend and authority in my life, I felt such a relief. I’d done it: those three things were now under control; well, they were under a microscope anyway.
I thought I could focus all my energy on maintaining improvement in those areas and I’d be fine. But, the same night I got help and made the decision to change and fix the issue with His help, He gave me a personal word in my quiet time. Then, on Sunday night at church prayer, He told me something else to confirm the first word He gave me and sure enough, I’m seeing it unfold already this week. Today I noticed yet another pattern in my life I needed to submit to Him.
I realized tonight during my quiet time that He is a kind, patient, and loving God. I can’t imagine if He were to tell me all the things wrong with my character at once. I would probably die under the pressure and the utter despair. But, God is faithful and careful with me. He gives me what I can handle (although sometimes I think I can’t) and slowly strengthens my faith in Him and His process.
As I thought about what He told me He was doing with my life, I told Him I wasn’t sure I could do it. I’m not strong enough, I don’t have the strength of will to do this. But, He reminded me of His Word:
“And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”1 Corinthians 12:9a
It makes sense that the tiny, seemingly meaningless sacrifice of my life is what He wants. He wants the sacrifice (if you can even call it that) for my benefit, for my freedom, for His love to be fully manifest in me and through me.
“…Present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable into God, which is your reasonable service…”Roman’s 12:1b
Consider this: His love for us and His care for our lives is so great that we couldn’t possibly contain it in our hearts. We would surely die if we knew how truly great He is and how much love He has for us. The sacrifice of our lives for Him is so minuscule it’s like one tiny grain of sand in a multitude of beaches. Yet He wants it. That in itself is mind-blowing.
We couldn’t look at Him in His face and see our true selves in the reflection of His eyes without falling to the ground weeping at our unworthiness to look upon someone so righteous, good, loving, and holy (human words cannot nearly express the vastness of His glory and majesty and righteousness in comparison our depravity and lowliness).
My challenge to you today (to us, really) is to thank Him for His patience and His love. If you need help understanding, read the Romans Road (google it) or Hebrews 1 (or all of Hebrews is a great place to start). Think about how these pertain to you. Consider your sinfulness (past, present, possibly future), repent, and ask for His understanding.
I pray today that we would together be able to comprehend what is the height, depth, width, and breadth, to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge, that we might be filled with all the fulness of God… and that we wouldn’t explode but would act on that understanding toward Him and others in a way that would bless the King of Kings. That our faith would be expressed in our works. In Jesus’s name, Amen.