I am a fix-it girl.
Any time something happens or I notice something wrong or someone else says something about something that’s wrong, I’m on it like white on rice trying to fix the problem. Do I actually accomplish anything or help anybody? Maybe sometimes… Do I run myself ragged and stress myself out over something I didn’t have to get (or probably shouldn’t have gotten) involved in? Most definitely; almost always.
My pastor says to slow down and find out whether God has ordained something or for you to handle something, and if you don’t have peace about it, it isn’t yours to deal with yet (or ever). I still struggle with the fix-it mentality.
Today, someone mentioned something about what’s going on in their life. I won’t say what it was, but they asked me about me after telling me their news. I asked them how they … did what they did and they answered basically that they did it themselves. I thought, maybe that’s what I should do! I have a promise I’m holding on to, a hope backed up by what I think is the Lord, and this conversation brought to my mind that promise. When they told me what they did to bring about what they now had, I thought, hm, maybe I should do it that way; maybe that’s how God’s promise will come to pass. The Ms. Fix-it was already creeping in. I always think I have to DO something and RIGHT NOW. But God doesn’t work like that and He hasn’t called me (or you) to work that way either.
Here’s the thing: we are not God’s partners. He doesn’t need us to do His will for our lives or anyone else’s for that matter. Yes, He calls us His friend but I do not dare say the same about Him or lump myself in the same category as Him. I don’t deserve His friendship and wouldn’t dare name-drop the Lord as if He owes me anything. How good He is, though! He uses us and our pea-brains for His purposes sometimes. But I wonder if I’ll ever know how much Ms. Fix-it has gotten in the way of His plans.
So, when Ms. Fix-it showed up in my mind again today, the Lord (how faithful He is) reminded me of something I keep in my wallet. It’s a cutout from a book I read which says,”All you need to do is ask Me; you don’t need to connive; if you just ask in My name, I will do it.” (The New Wine is Better, Robert Thom)
How many times have I connived instead of waiting on the Lord? How often would I have seen the salvation of the Lord had I just sat back and watched Him do His work? I’ve striven so long to make things happen that He hasn’t ordained, or have tried to make things mine that He hadn’t said yes to. I’ve been impatient for much of my life, not willing to wait on His timing, His best, His faithfulness.
What is this Ms. Fix-it mentality? It is sin. It’s distrust and doubt. It’s Eve in me. It’s thinking I know what I deserve and God is just too slow for my liking. This is such errant thinking!! The Bible says, “God is not slack concerning His promise as some count slackness…” (2 Peter 3:9a) It also says, “For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” (Habakkuk 2:3) God has a plan for each of us – a plan for good, for a future, and for a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11) We don’t have to connive or make it happen ourselves (that will likely make it less awesome). He has it in hand. Be patient (that was a sermon my pastor gave recently as well – each point was BE PATIENT!).
Whatever it is you are waiting for, hoping for, holding on to, wait upon the Lord alone – don’t do anything unless He specifically calls you to (and make sure). “But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, lacking nothing.” (James 1:4) God is faithful. He will answer.
“My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from Him.”Psalm 62:5