“Do you trust Me?” This is a question the Lord has been posing to me for quite some time. I even wrote a novel surrounding it. Over the last eighteen months I’ve been asked this question through circumstances – some from my own doing, needing redemption, others over which I have no control. Again today I was asked.
I struggle with this seemingly simple question often, which may be why it is that God continues to ask. I want to answer yes every time, immediately. But my heart and my actions can sometimes prove me uncertain or a downright liar, liar, pants on fire. I hate to admit it, but I know God is working on strengthening my faith. We are called to have faith that doesn’t dwindle, cower, or falter when the pressure is on. I fail at this so much!
When things go wrong, I try to find the way to fix them – whether called to or not. Those times when I’m uncertain of the outcome (especially when it’s important or a deadline is near), I fear, worry, panic. My thoughts even betray me and I find myself trying to think of ways to fix it myself, run away, or get myself out of it in ways that aren’t ordained by God. Sure I’d been praying about it from the beginning. But I either wasn’t a good steward and God has finally given me over or am just unsure whether or when God will answer. When it’s down to the wire, I panic. What do I do when I don’t know what to do?
It’s at these very moments that we have a choice to make. We must either surrender and trust God’s faithfulness to us (having done all, standing firm) or take up our heavy burden and try to do it ourselves, in our own strength, without God.
These moments can make or break our faith. In the movie “God’s Not Dead,” the main character says, “It’s not easy, but it’s simple.”
Oddly enough, the easy way is doing it ourselves, though it turns into the hard way because we will either fail or have to repent and crawl back to Jesus at some point.
“It is impossible for those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heavenly gift, who have shared in the Holy Spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of God and the powers of the coming age and who have fallen away, to be brought back to repentance. To their loss they are crucifying the Son of God all over again and subjecting him to public disgrace.”Hebrews 6:4-6
God’s way isn’t always easy (though His yoke is easy…), but it’s simple. It is difficult to deny the flesh, the mind, and emotions their desires. It’s difficult to put our trust in God because it means we give up control. That is difficult! And scary! But simple. It is simply a decision we have to make. It’s the Amen decision. It’s the “so-be-it” answer; the “Yes, Lord, I trust You – help my unbelief” prayer. The “I will follow You, come what may.” Whatever the outcome, He will never disappoint. He is never late. And He is always good.
There’s a song my pastor and his brother used to sing that says, “Whatever it is, whatever it may be, I lay it down…” I love it because there’s no answer at the end of what God will do. It’s laid down, it’s in His hands, and we are LEAVING IT THERE. Oh how I need to learn this.
So today when God asks you, “Do you trust Me?” Answer simply, “Yes, Lord. I do. I’m laying this down. Do what You will.” If you need to tell someone you trust to keep you accountable, or need someone to know you’re giving something to God, whatever you need to do to lay it down and leave it with Him, do it.
It’s simple. Right? 😉